you know how you stand and stand in line for the most incredible roller coaster you've ever dared to attempt? anticipation swelling, minute by minute, you choose to wait to ride the front car, and finally it's your turn.

they buckle you in, lock you in. hook engaged, the chain jerks you forward. you start to climb. crank. crank. crank. cresting to the top, time moves into overtime, as you wait for that scant hesitation before you drop, knowing you cant turn back. you know how you feel at that instant? well thats exactly how you feel when you shake hands with the monster.

want to cry, want to scream, urge to dance, to ride the current, sweeping me away.